What do I want to be when I grow up?

I am still asking this question! I thought I had made a decision last year and now I am questioning if that is what I am supposed to be doing. Seriously, I need a sign, God. And then I need a sign to tell me that was the sign! I have been talking to the kids, and a couple of adults, about following their passion for what they want to do with their lives. I'm not sure if medicine is my passion. It has come fairly easily to me - other than this ever-so-frustrating EMT class. And it has come easily, but I'm not sure I'm diggin' it. Ya know? It could be that I am just that smart that I can do the work. I'm just not smart enough to figure out what I want to be when I grow up.

I really should have followed that whole "marry the first time for love, the second time for money" theory. LOL - I didn't do it right either time! Had I married for money the second time I could do anything I wanted and not have to worry about what will bring in the cash! I would probably just stay home with the kids and be a mama.....

I am perplexed. It simply isn't right that these decisions come so easily to some and the rest of us just can't figure it out. Such is life I suppose.

I came up with a pretty good analogy today - at least I think it's good - lol. Let me set the scene. I am supposed to be driving a pretty new bus; however, it continually breaks down so I have only driven it a total of 2 weeks this school year - that's accumulative, not straight time. So today, as I was washing one of the sub busses that I am returning (so I can drive another sub bus) it occured to me that sometimes in life we have to drive a sub bus for awhile because the one we really want to drive isn't quite ready for us. Eventually it will be, and when it is, we will be more appreciative of it. In the meantime, we are getting to experience a different ride with a different view. Pretty good, right?